FaLleN ApaRt

LOVE...CAN ANYONE DESCRIBE THE MEANING OF LOVE?PEOPLE DO SAY LOVE CANT BE QUESTIONED OR ANSWERED.WELL TO ME,LOVE IS JUST A HURTING GAME.IT IS EASY TO LOVE BUT IT IS HARD TO FORGET OR LET GO.

ITS BEEN TWO YEARS AND YET HE STILL APPEARS IN MY MIND.HE WAS SO INSANE WHEN I FIRST SAW HIM.WE WERE ONI FRIENDS,SHALL I SAY BASIC FRIENDS?FRIENDS THAT DIDNT TALK BUT JUST S SIMPLE SMILE?YEA..BASIC FRIENDS.WE DID NOT INTRODUCE OURSELVES.WE GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER THROUGH OUR FRIEND.SHE'S A BEST FRIEND TO ME.WELL,HE LIKES HER OF CAUSE.THEY STARTED CONTACTING EACH OTHER AND FINALLY THEY END UP A COUPLE.HOW SWEET HUH?AS TIME PASSES,FRIENDS OF FRIENDS TELL ME ABOUT HIS BAD POINTS.I DO NOT WANT MY FRIEND TO GET HURT,I TOLD HER EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM.SHE DOESNT WAN TO BELIEVE IT.SINCE THAT HAPPEN,I ASKED HIM RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FRIEND.HE WAS SPEECHLESS AS I SCOLDED HIM NICELY.I DIDNT KNOW HE WAS LOOKING INTO MY EYES UNTIL HE TOLD ME HE HAD A WEIRD FEELING WHEN HE STARES AT ME.I WAS HAPPY AS I THOUGHT HE WAS AFRAID OF ME.BUT,IM WRONG.HE TOLD ME HE LIKES ME.HE WANTED ME TO BE HIS SISTER.OK,I AGREED.I EXPECT HIM TO TREAT ME BETTER THAN PREVIOUSLY AS FRIENDS.WELL,HE DID TREAT ME GOOD.

AS TIME PASS,I COULDNT BELIEVE THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM.I HIDE THIS FEELING BY MYSELF.UNTIL A DAY,HE WANT TO MEET UP.I THOUGHT IT WAS A NORMAL MEETING ANS HAVE A CHAT BY OURSELVES.NO! HE KISSED ME.HE HUGGED ME.AM I SUPPOSE TO BE HAPPY OR ANGRY?HAPPY THAT THE PERSON I LOVE KISSED ME.ANGRY THAT HE BETRAYED MY FRIEND.HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS PARTNER(GF).I ASKED HIM TO THINK PROPERLY BEFORE ASKING ME TO DO STUFFS THAT WILL HURT BOTH OF US.HE DOESNT CARE WHAT I SAY.HE JUST WANT ME TO BE HIS GF.HE LIKES ME SINCERELY OR WANT TO TAKE ADVANTAGES?OR HE WANTS ME TO BE HIS FLOATER(JZ TO ACCMPNY HIM)?I DONT KNOW AND I DONT CARE MUCH.AS LONG AS I KNOW I LIKE HIM.

DAY BY DAY,TIME BY TIME...I GET TO KNOW HE WAS JUST PLAYING ON ME.HE DOESNT REALLY LIKES ME.I WAS HURT.HURT IN THE SENSE THAT I ACCEPTED HIM.HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID TO ACCEPT SOMEONE THAT IS ACTUALLY TRYING TO PLAY ON ME?I DIDNT ASK HIM MUCH.I KEPT IT TO MYSELF.I ASKED FOR BREAK UP.HE SAID OKAY.WHAT?HE AGREED TOO.I CRIED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.IM STUPID HUH?YEA,I KNOW I AM...I STILL CANT LET HIM GO THOUGH ITS BEEN AWHILE...

(to be continued...)